Wednesday, September 15, 2010

A special lady

Words can not even begin to describe how special my grandmother was to me and my family. As long as I can remember my grandmother has always been there. While my mom worked, she cared for me and my cousins. We celebrated birthdays and holidays as a family. Family was everything to my grandmother.
I will miss our weekly chats, our afternoon talks on your porch, our many trips to the flea market and shopping, our annual trips to the lake, and so many other things. You have taught to me to cherish family and never take them for granted, and I have just been reminded of that.
At some point, I knew this time would have to come... however I never expected it to be so soon. I'm sure spending your 78th birthday in the hospital wasn't much fun, but I'm glad I was able to wish you one last happy birthday...
Saying goodbye to you was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life. I think I have still been in shock the entire past week. I don't want to talk about it, and don't even want anyone hugging me and trying to show their concern.. I just don't want to think about it. I know that is not how you deal, but that is easiest for me right now. But... how lucky were we to actually be able to say goodbye? People did without saying goodbye everyday, and you actually were able to talk to all 6 of your children and 8 of the 10 grandchildren... and we know you so tried to hang on and wait for Misty and TD to travel here. It was hard, but I am glad that I got to tell you goodbye, I will never forget your words to me. I will always take care of my children and love them unconditionally as you reminded me and I know you were tired and not giving up. We just didn't want to let you go.
I know that Heaven is such a happy place for you right now and what a joy it must be to be reunited with Paw and OMG... to see our Lord.....